REVISION

               My school experience has been a challenging one thus far. It could be the best or worse twelve plus years of any students life. A time I reminisce and came to a conclusion to discuss would have to be about my three years in junior high school. I would have to say it was a frightening transition from an elementary school to a junior high school. As a child, I really did not know how to handle certain situations, so it was pretty difficult for me because everything was new to me; the people, the school, the teachers, everything. I can say as a twenty-three year old college student, that I am a completely different person than I was in middle school. I have learned to respect others and have learned through hard times of struggle, the aspect of priorities and knowing what is important. 
               My middle school had a variety of races, for example, Caucasian, Hispanic, Black, etc. I feel schools that have wide variety of races are more positive and have less racial issues amongst students. Schools like the one I attended believe in diversity which is extremely important and essential in New York City public schools. That is so because, students can get the sense of equality and understand that everyone is different in their own ways which is acceptable. Middle school was a tough experience for me. I was not exactly an honor roll student and back then school was not something that I really enjoyed period. In all my years of education I was always proficient in the subject of English and had immense difficulties in Mathematics; this still applies today. My highest point in school was when I participated in a middle school play called "Peter and the Wolf", which had the storyline of the well known children's story, "Little Red Riding Hood". I luckily received the part of the main character Peter. That was an exciting, yet challenging experience for me as a student. I had to not only continue concentrating in school, but also remember my lines in time for the date of the play. I felt important being the main character and felt like all eyes were on me because I was the star of the play. I am glad the play was a success and I performed wonderfully. This was the only upside and positive experience of my three years in junior high school. The worse was yet to come and I was blindly heading into them face first. 
              A very sensitive topic that I have not discussed or spoken about with anyone was that I was unfortunately made fun of my three years in middle school and continuing onto my first year of high school. Those were one of the most terrifying, lonely, and, undeniably embarrassing moments of my life. I would wake up in the morning and just feel so down, not wanting to wake up and go to school. In school, I would try to avoid the people that would torment me but we were in the same grade and we had the same classes. Everyday, I couldn't wait to hurry home and lock myself in my room. There I would just cry myself to sleep and wake up and do it all over again the next day. I never spoke to anyone about my situation and just kept it bottled in all my life. I would have never thought I would go through something that horrible like I did, and am so grateful that it ended in my freshman year of high school. I read so many books, articles, and have seen tons of news coverages on television about students bullying other students to the point where they refuse to live any longer and want hurt themselves. Thankfully, I knew that life was too precious to end so soon and it would have been selfish of me to leave this world so soon. That for me was the lowest point in school. Bullying is something that I nor many individuals do not tolerate and hate hearing about. I absolutely dislike hearing about situations like that because it comes from personal experience. 

             Bullying is something that should not be taken likely and anyone that is a victim of it should ask for assistance as soon as possible from a friend, parent, guardian, or anyone that they can confide in. I honestly wish that I can take back and erase everything that happened to me throughout those years. That was something that was so horrific and damaging to the heart, that I wish it never happened. It was a specific group of popular kids that were in on the bullying. From there, it became the vast majority of the school. This traumatic experience thankfully only occurred in school and not at home. I was so glad when I left school that all the bullying was left behind me but then it began all over again when I went to school the next day. My classmates would just say the meanest things that anyone can say to another human being. The students would call me "buck tooth" or "beaver" because of my gums and teeth and this would occur throughout the day and every day of my middle school.  I do not know how people can be so cold hearted and tease someone on a topic that is sentimental to them. Unfortunately, no one intervened to help because no one knew what was going on; just me and the people who were bullying me. I did not ask for help because I felt like at the time that no one would be able to handle it and I felt as if it were no use to ask for help. I dealt with this situation alone and kept it bottled in for four years of my life. I felt like I dealt with it the best that I could given the circumstance. I would not have been able to do anything unless I spoke with someone who was superior to the students, like a teacher or the school guidance counselor. At the time, I felt like the whole world was against me and that everyone hated me because I was different than the rest. This of course is still a very sensitive topic for me because it affected me a great deal and those times were the worse times of my life.

            I feel my bullying experience has made me the person that I am today. Even though it was a tough time for me I feel that now I became a strong, independent woman and I do not let things bother me easily.  I definitely would not tolerate any nonsense of bullying to me or anyone else that is involved. I hope that one day bullying can finally come to an end so individuals, like myself, will not continue to go through the same negative experiences I through in the past. I have learned from those experiences and as a prospective educator, I plan to use them to prevent students from bullying others in the school system.